I think I would have had the same issues regardless of background, but I think it wouldn't have been as personal. I literally had to take a lorazepam after seeing it, because it was -- yeah, a pretty extreme trigger. I've been dealing with a lot of stuff related to my Dad and his worldview over the past few months, and something that visceral... I'm just glad I didn't see it in theatres (we had been intending to but never got around to it).
I'll keep that in mind about A Clockwork Orange. I've only ever heard good things about that movie, too; I didn't realize there was a rape scene. That's potentially triggering for me as well, for slightly different reasons. There are some contexts in which it bothers me less than others (for instance, I'm thinking of some movies based on legends where one of the prominent female figures is raped... and being that I'm familiar with the legend, I'm prepared).
I'm glad I figured out why it bothered me so much. I mean... I really love dark movies and TV shows. The Dark Knight, V For Vendetta, Angel, etc. My "comfort reading" is to sit down with George R. R. Martin's doorstoppers or Anne Bishop's Black Jewels trilogy. But this... yeah, really, it was like being dunked into my father's constant state of mind. Which is... disturbing. I wish he'd get help, but I don't see that ever happening.
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Date: 2009-11-23 08:25 am (UTC)I'll keep that in mind about A Clockwork Orange. I've only ever heard good things about that movie, too; I didn't realize there was a rape scene. That's potentially triggering for me as well, for slightly different reasons. There are some contexts in which it bothers me less than others (for instance, I'm thinking of some movies based on legends where one of the prominent female figures is raped... and being that I'm familiar with the legend, I'm prepared).
I'm glad I figured out why it bothered me so much. I mean... I really love dark movies and TV shows. The Dark Knight, V For Vendetta, Angel, etc. My "comfort reading" is to sit down with George R. R. Martin's doorstoppers or Anne Bishop's Black Jewels trilogy. But this... yeah, really, it was like being dunked into my father's constant state of mind. Which is... disturbing. I wish he'd get help, but I don't see that ever happening.