It hit me even harder because I wasn't prepared. If I'd known the extent to which the movie went, I wouldn't have watched it. But, people were comparing it to The Dark Knight in regards to how brutal and dark the story was. I was blind-sided.
When we have insurance again, if we have mental health coverage (which in this area, we likely will), I intend on looking into therapy to try to deal with this. I'm not sure if it would help any, but it would be worth a shot. I want to erase it all from my memory and I can't, and I find myself reacting in certain ways to people that are absolutely conditioned from my Dad and what he imposed upon me. I'm amazed I can have anything to do with men whatsoever, because the brutal, violent picture he painted... sometimes I'm amazed that I am as mentally stable as I am. It's taken a lot of conscious effort to get me to this point, and I've hit the point where I can't do any more on my own.
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Date: 2009-11-23 08:31 am (UTC)When we have insurance again, if we have mental health coverage (which in this area, we likely will), I intend on looking into therapy to try to deal with this. I'm not sure if it would help any, but it would be worth a shot. I want to erase it all from my memory and I can't, and I find myself reacting in certain ways to people that are absolutely conditioned from my Dad and what he imposed upon me. I'm amazed I can have anything to do with men whatsoever, because the brutal, violent picture he painted... sometimes I'm amazed that I am as mentally stable as I am. It's taken a lot of conscious effort to get me to this point, and I've hit the point where I can't do any more on my own.