District 9 set off that "ohshit" panic. When I was sick, I was very powerless and in the hands of a lot of medical staff. I still have recurring nightmares of that panic feeling, and during some scenes, I just thought I was going to start barfing. I was not prepared for that.
I tend to avoid triggery things like it, and while I can watch medical shows, it's context, I suppose. I would have turned off the movie, or left the room.
The issues with my mom resolved over time. I think we both grew up. She was angry and frustrated a lot and took it out on me. We've come along way. I daresay we almost get along now and she finds me hilarious in my snark where she used to hate it. I'm still trying to grasp that new level of relationship.
I wish parents didn't imprint their issues on kids so much, not that we need to shelter them, but must each generation seem to inflict their own insecurities and anger on the next? I don't get it. I hope I am honestly a better parent than that, if and when.
The local universities in your area might have some sliding scale clinic/access as well, and I wish you all the best. Life's too short to be hauling OTHER people's baggage and your own.
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regna
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Date: 2009-11-24 02:42 am (UTC)District 9 set off that "ohshit" panic. When I was sick, I was very powerless and in the hands of a lot of medical staff. I still have recurring nightmares of that panic feeling, and during some scenes, I just thought I was going to start barfing. I was not prepared for that.
I tend to avoid triggery things like it, and while I can watch medical shows, it's context, I suppose. I would have turned off the movie, or left the room.
The issues with my mom resolved over time. I think we both grew up. She was angry and frustrated a lot and took it out on me. We've come along way. I daresay we almost get along now and she finds me hilarious in my snark where she used to hate it. I'm still trying to grasp that new level of relationship.
I wish parents didn't imprint their issues on kids so much, not that we need to shelter them, but must each generation seem to inflict their own insecurities and anger on the next? I don't get it. I hope I am honestly a better parent than that, if and when.
The local universities in your area might have some sliding scale clinic/access as well, and I wish you all the best. Life's too short to be hauling OTHER people's baggage and your own.